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Soooo... I just felt as though this was HILARIOUS so I felt like I should put it somewhere that no one ever sees... aka this blog... (sarcasm... I know that is really hard to convey via internet.. eeesh I gotta work on that)...

I just wanted to say that I am becoming increasingly frustrated with others around me. I feel like the Lord must be doing a number on my heart and trying to get it right because holy cow I might kill someone these days. I don't want to be all bridezilla about my wedding or anything... but it is MY wedding. If you don't want to be a part of it or stick your neck out just a little bit for what is going to be the most important day of my life then you can just move right along. Because I guarantee that I don't need you to make this special for me.

 I  see selfishness in others, but then I feel convicted because I am being selfish. I am the one who is completely obsessed with this whole wedding  thing, and why should I expect anyone else to be totally into it? Well mostly because I would be that way for your wedding... Oh but there I go being selfish again. Maybe I just should learn to not rely on anyone else and just do it myself. Then I can't get disappointed with other people with it doesn't go my way. Eh... whatevs.

That's why I feel like the Lord must be trying to work in me. Because I do feel convicted. How can I expect someone to be self-less when I am being selfish? Oy.

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.
Philippians 2:2-4

....Ah crap.