So thank heavens... everything worked out with the dress and we ordered it so yay. I just want to say that the purpose of this whole hipster blog thing is to whine right? SO I am going to whine a bit:)
I feel as though it is necessary to say that I am incredibly grateful for the things that I have in my life. I am blessed with a wonderful family, I have good friends and I have this guy that I love that actually wants to marry me which is such a shock cause some days I EVEN find it hard to be committed to me.
I also should be thankful for the fact that the Lord has blessed me with a career. Well career is a stretch. He has blessed me with a job in this horrible age of unemployment. I don't want to come off spoiled or ungrateful, because I am grateful. But this job... geeeez this job is ridiculous. First of all I must take some responsibility because here I am at 3:05PM on a Monday afternoon and I am blogging...and that can't make my job any easier... BUT that is besides the point. My job is ridiculous for a multitude of reasons. I took this job for a few simple reasons. 1. It was a "real" job and it was the first one that was offered to me right out of college. 2.It seemed to be a God centered organization. 3.It was something that I felt I would be good at.
Now, let me get a couple of things straight... I am no dumb dumb (hence the pics of the smarties on my laptop.. if I were a dumb dumb I would have put Dum Dum suckers there--hehe). I did well in school when I actually tried and I make semi-good decisions most of the time. But I am honestly not sure if this job is hard for me because I am not the kind of smart this job requires or if I just flat out don't care. Because see, I had this problem in some classes when I was in school. I was horrible in math. Well, I didn't CARE about math. So I was the fool who had to take college algebra, like, 3 times to get above a D. Along with a remedial algebra class. Talk about a waste of money and time. Anyway,... there are certain very important aspects of my j. o. b. that I certainly do not care about. But I do care about the most important parts. It is just the parts that take up the most of my time that I hate. And all the deadlines. I hate deadlines. I just wonder how/if I am supposed to learn to care about those things? And I have to drive all over the state of Texas most of the time so I have less time to complete the things that I hate.
The other thing is... This place is supposed to be a Christian place to work.... wellll some of the practices that I have witnessed have been somewhat questionable of the moral standards and that worries me a bit espesh when it comes to being a stable place to start a career.
The questions is should I try and find something else to do? Get out while I still can? I should be thankful for what I have. There are millions of people out there who haven't been able to find work in months. But does that mean that I should have to wake up something every single morning to go to a job that I hate?
My mother tells me that the Lord put me here to show me something. He either needs me to learn something or teach someone something.
I would give anything to figure out what that something is.
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